BRAND NEW

So in life i never ask for much from people but to always keep it real.And i really cant understand why that is so hard to do.Why do people especially those who are suppose to be your so called friends have to lie and talk about you behind your back.I'm guessing it must be the pussy in that's in these people now days. I had  friend whose life was full of nothing but bullshit everything he did was bullshit all the lies and hiding and cheating i don't even think he has a hold on reality anymore i mean once you go around lien all the time you don't even know what the truth is in life anymore i don't even think he even keeps it real with himself if you are born a liar i still think you should be at least able to tell yourself the truth or at least find somebody you can trust to be able to tell them so you don't have to keep all these lies to your self i was trying to be that person to my so called friend and the more i got to know him the more I found how big of a tired old ignorant ass liar he really was for know reason at all its so ridiculous. I had to cut him off cant do liars at all. This next situation is kind of me being a hater really bad yes i admit to it don't have a problem with it sometimes a hater just comes out even though its really not in your character.So i had these strong feelings for these particular person for like years I had never told them and i really didn't have any plans on telling them either because it didn't really matter because he was in a committed relationship with his baby momma.I finally got my balls up to confess the way i felt.Now he wanted to sex me up and at first i thought that was the shit but then when i further thought about it it was just not gone work that way so i have decided that i cant be cool with him in anyway at all not even friends. selfish and ignorant i know and he really is a good guy but i cant talk to him like i use to. I deleted him from my face book months ago seen a message on there that just hurt my soul.That was the first step to getting over him now the second step is to delete him out my phone which is so hard because i do like to check up on him just to say whats up but I'm a get it together real soon. Next is the people that i love the most always have something to say I'm a tell its not that many people in this world that i do really give a fuck bout so you know if you in that circle you are really something special.Gossip and liars are something i just don't like especially when its to the people who are truly close to me those are the ones that i keep it the realest with and i don't know what it is but they seem not to be able to do the same thing to me.I don't think I'm a hard person to talk to and i know my attitude stanks like shit it doesn't mean that you have the right to talk about me behind my back.If you don't like the way i am as a person express that to me don't tell it to people that cant do shit about it.I cant even do shit bout the way I am because i love the way that i am.I wouldn't change my ways for nothing in the world well my way of being entirely to kind hearted that's my weakness.I love being ignorant i love being a bitch i love telling people what i want to tell them and however it comes out that's just the way it is.I love flipping in and out of moves oh well you better just try to catch a good one.I am deciding to do new and better things for 2012 and for real i cant wait to make the accomplishments that i need to make and suck fuck all the people that i deal with that cant recognize the real i Have worked so hard to grow up and be the woman that i am today and i refuse to let love haters or my own hate liars or anybody that's bad for me and my boy get in my way of my goals my life my new path that i am about to take.Fuck it I'm working on a new me.